say it isn't so!

far be it from me to sweat anybody too tough, especially celebrities. there is just something in my egotistical make-up (?) that won't allow such things for people who- for the most part, and in my estimation- are utterly shallow, untouched by reality, and in many cases undeserving of the praise and dividends they receive. i mean really, who is more fitting for such, a teacher that struggles each day to school a class full of students (with all different personalities) not just the basic mandated curricula, but also how to be positive, law abiding citizens who will one day take over this sick world we've created for ourselves, or lindsay lohan/paris hilton/usher? shouldn't some guy who takes ample time out of his day to be a big brother to a little boy up the block, or regularly makes it a point to buy a burger and fries for a homeless person on his way from work, be hounded by cameras and press everywhere he goes, having questions thrown at him, like: "how do you prepare yourself mentally for such roles?" "oh, you look absolutely fabulous! who are you wearing, k-mart? sears?"

... aw'ight, you get my point. i know i have issues, but i'm just saying, can those who really work hard to contribute something positive to the world get a pound?? i'm all for artists (i said artists) getting paid for their art, but entertainers get taken too damn (ahem) seriously these days...

anyway, i don't pay celebs too much attention, but i have to say, this whole jessica and nick separation thing is hurting my heart. of course, we're used to hearing of 'hollywood couples' breaking up, way sooner than these two. the reason why i think i'm sort of sorrowful though is because:1) she really seemed as if she had a kind of spiritual foundation when she came out, 2) she married a virgin, and was very proud of her chastity (i was proud of her, too), 3) they seemed very much in love and respectful of one another with a big, wonderful future ahead of them.

keeping in mind that i don't know these people, and have absolutely no idea why they decided on this, i have managed to come up with some theories (from a woman's point of view?). firstly, i don't see the entertainment industry being a place for anybody looking for spiritual or religious peace. from what i understand, jessica initially wanted to do gospel, but wound up in pop- first mistake; ain't nothing but the devil all up in that piece. secondly, from the out-out side looking in, it seems that she just started getting more confident in herself, which unfortunately in our generation manifests itself by wearing less and less clothes, and oft times feeling like we can do w/o certain male counterparts. ultimately, i think she shed some (or alot) of the innocence she started out with, and maybe felt that she 'missed out' on some stuff getting married so early, etc. whether they split because of infedelity or what, when a woman doesn't have to 'depend' on anyone, there's less stuff she's willing to accept, deal with, or fight for.
whatever they're going through, i hope they can work it out because i hate divorce (unless it's absolutely necessary). i heard a story once:

all day long shaytaan's (satan's- curse him) helpers came to him with all the evil things they had done. if one had caused someone to commit suicide, rape or something, he would just be non-chalant, like "yeah, that's nice, whatever". but when one came and said, "i have caused a couple to divorce", he would be very happy and say, "you have done very well!"

alright, that's enough of my rambling. i wonder if i'm the only one pondering this way too much...