Wednesday, September 24, 2008
what the feezie?!!
o-kay, i publish and then view my last post, and what do i find? all of my posts are waaay down the page! what's up with that?? please, somebody help!
just can't seem to shake it...
oh my goodness, I LOVE THIS SONG!!
Baby you can't go on
Wondering where you belong
Let me help you find yourself
'Cause you don't need nobody else
Ahh, you should be right here with me babe
Instead of going round this frantic town
And start messin' around
With all the lonely lonely people out there
No one to care
Why don't you come and stay with me
Because I love you so
You tell me you love me so
Why do you have to go
Everything you'll ever need
You will find right here with me
Ahh, you should be right here with me babe
Instead of going round this frantic town
And start messin' around
With all the lonely lonely people out there
No one to care
Why don't you come and stay with me
Because I love you so
Stay with me, Stay with me
Stay with me, Stay with me
Stay with me, Stay with me
Stay with me, Stay with me, Stay with me...
Ahh, you should be with me babe
Ahh, you shouldn't go no where
And all I'm trying to tell you babe
Happiness is waiting for you
So wont you stay with me?
So wont you stay with me?
I got what you need
So wont you stay with me?
Don't go nowhere baby,
don't go, no, no
I got what ya need
So wont you stay with me?
Don't go, Don't go, I love you so
Don't go, Don't go, I love you so
Don't go, Don't go, I love you so
Don't go, Don't go, I love you so
y'all remember that?? stay with me by de barge. this is one of those songs that wigs me out, even if i don't 'hear' it. i love this song so much that all it had to do was pop in my head last night, and it's been on ever since. it's ramadaan (mashALLAH), so i've been keeping away from the music [for the most part], concentrating more on playing the qur'aan. i broke down a little while ago though and tried to listen to a 30 second sample (yes, desperate, i know), to no avail; my speaker wouldn't work for some reason. that's what i get, right?.
that song though drives me mad- i can't even articulate what it does. it's like some deep-rooted, emotional/spiritual thing that makes me want to cry, and fall in love over and over again. kinda like that thing you feel when you get so overwhelmed by the sight of your child. and it's not just the music alone, nor the lyrics, but a combination of the two; it's just right on point! i love you de barge!!
Baby you can't go on
Wondering where you belong
Let me help you find yourself
'Cause you don't need nobody else
Ahh, you should be right here with me babe
Instead of going round this frantic town
And start messin' around
With all the lonely lonely people out there
No one to care
Why don't you come and stay with me
Because I love you so
You tell me you love me so
Why do you have to go
Everything you'll ever need
You will find right here with me
Ahh, you should be right here with me babe
Instead of going round this frantic town
And start messin' around
With all the lonely lonely people out there
No one to care
Why don't you come and stay with me
Because I love you so
Stay with me, Stay with me
Stay with me, Stay with me
Stay with me, Stay with me
Stay with me, Stay with me, Stay with me...
Ahh, you should be with me babe
Ahh, you shouldn't go no where
And all I'm trying to tell you babe
Happiness is waiting for you
So wont you stay with me?
So wont you stay with me?
I got what you need
So wont you stay with me?
Don't go nowhere baby,
don't go, no, no
I got what ya need
So wont you stay with me?
Don't go, Don't go, I love you so
Don't go, Don't go, I love you so
Don't go, Don't go, I love you so
Don't go, Don't go, I love you so
y'all remember that?? stay with me by de barge. this is one of those songs that wigs me out, even if i don't 'hear' it. i love this song so much that all it had to do was pop in my head last night, and it's been on ever since. it's ramadaan (mashALLAH), so i've been keeping away from the music [for the most part], concentrating more on playing the qur'aan. i broke down a little while ago though and tried to listen to a 30 second sample (yes, desperate, i know), to no avail; my speaker wouldn't work for some reason. that's what i get, right?.
that song though drives me mad- i can't even articulate what it does. it's like some deep-rooted, emotional/spiritual thing that makes me want to cry, and fall in love over and over again. kinda like that thing you feel when you get so overwhelmed by the sight of your child. and it's not just the music alone, nor the lyrics, but a combination of the two; it's just right on point! i love you de barge!!
Thursday, September 04, 2008
RAMADAAN MUBARAK!
SubhanALLAH, Ramadaan is here! This is our 4th day in, and I'm lovin' it. I can't really say why; there's just something about Ramadaan. People who don't observe it's fast [etc.] may think that it's a struggle or burden, but it really isn't- not for me or my friends/family. In fact (and many of you can vouch for me), many times when we break fast we are not even in a rush to eat. We have to of course because we know our bodies have rights over us. My point though is that there's no feeling of deprivation or anything.
Then let us not forget Ramadaan is not just about 'doing without'. The point is to elevate ourselves back to the state in which we were created, via our father Adam. Fasting from food, drink, intercourse, as well as focusing more on charity, helping those who at the time may be struggling a little harder, etc. uplifts us spiritually, and focuses the attention where it needs to be: with the One Creator, ALLAH. Yet this month is meant to be a stepping stone, a template to how we should be- and in fact are ordered to be- throughout the rest of the year. InshALLAH, we will accept the hikma (wisdom) in it and live it consistently (Amin).
I'd like to say this Ramadaan is even more special to me because my sister has come back to the deen (subhanALLAH!). She hasn't been 'practicing' for a long time, but decided enough was enough for her, and has been getting up for suhur, making her salaah, and even plans to start back dressing modestly. I'm very proud of her.
Another thing I am grateful for is the fact that Ramadaan naturally enforces a communal bond, not just at the masjid (it's beautiful to see oodles of people praying, eating and playing together every night, especially with the weather being so pleasant), but within your personal circle. I truly enjoy getting up to prepare my family's suhur, and calling around to wake up other family/friends. (How often can you phone someone 4 in the morning, and it's all good??) It's a beautiful thing, and I'm just glad I was chosen to be a part of it. ALLAH certainly does give th ebest gifts, no?
Then let us not forget Ramadaan is not just about 'doing without'. The point is to elevate ourselves back to the state in which we were created, via our father Adam. Fasting from food, drink, intercourse, as well as focusing more on charity, helping those who at the time may be struggling a little harder, etc. uplifts us spiritually, and focuses the attention where it needs to be: with the One Creator, ALLAH. Yet this month is meant to be a stepping stone, a template to how we should be- and in fact are ordered to be- throughout the rest of the year. InshALLAH, we will accept the hikma (wisdom) in it and live it consistently (Amin).
I'd like to say this Ramadaan is even more special to me because my sister has come back to the deen (subhanALLAH!). She hasn't been 'practicing' for a long time, but decided enough was enough for her, and has been getting up for suhur, making her salaah, and even plans to start back dressing modestly. I'm very proud of her.
Another thing I am grateful for is the fact that Ramadaan naturally enforces a communal bond, not just at the masjid (it's beautiful to see oodles of people praying, eating and playing together every night, especially with the weather being so pleasant), but within your personal circle. I truly enjoy getting up to prepare my family's suhur, and calling around to wake up other family/friends. (How often can you phone someone 4 in the morning, and it's all good??) It's a beautiful thing, and I'm just glad I was chosen to be a part of it. ALLAH certainly does give th ebest gifts, no?
Friday, August 29, 2008
back in the work field
sistas [all nationalities]:
have you ever felt like you do everything you can for your children and husband- making sure their needs are met, their dreams fulfilled- and you think to yourself that you are truly satisfied living in that role.
then one day you realize that [just how the older, wiser women warned] your children are growing (some leaving), your husband doesn't necessarily appreciate you in the way you feel you deserve, and aside from raising smart, respectful, ready-for-the-world children, you have virtually nothing. no fly business that you always thought you would have, no money to call your own, no degree that you were supposed to go back and get, no just-for-you accomplishments- besides the ones that came before hubby and children.
you look up and realize that although you FEEL [and probably THINK] you're still 25... your not. it dawns on you that even if you live to be 80, 80 isn't really that far off. you can remember 20 years ago as if it were merely 2 MONTHS ago, and you know for sure that if you do have until 80, the next 40 or 30 years will likely zoom by just as quickly. and what if your husband dies or leaves you, or your children grow up and eventually leave home? then what??
the panic kicks in, and while some of us actually get up off of our tails and do something, some of us don't.
obviously i am not simply throwing some arbitrary question out at you; i have owned this plight for quite some time. thankfully though, i was able to build up the strength and courage to join ranks with the former gals: i got up off of my butt and went back to work! i know this post probably makes me sound manic, but i'm not; i feel good. damn good, y'all! i had to find myself again because mu was m.i.a. i'm not that deep, so i know a whole lot of you feel where i'm coming from
and trust, i don't regret my choices of staying home with my babes, homeschooling, or even running [my husbands] restaurants because not only did i ask ALLAH for all of these things, but they benefitted us all. of course, the children being able to spend quality time with me and each other was tremendously beneficial on too many levels to even name, and homeschooling opened them up to worlds they never would have known in private or public school sectors. and while the restaurants liked to have broke a sista down (big-ups to all you restauranteurs out there!), it taught me business hands-on, and gave me confidence that i could not only cook for other people[and have them love and even pay for it!], but also teach them how to cook for themselves (2 businesses that i've started on my own).
oh, and one of the many things homeschooling has done for me (besides make me smarter, and a HUGE history buff) is teach me how to teach others. which brings me finally to the point of this post: i am back at the school i used to work, teaching grades 4, 5 and 7 (general ed.), as well as high school health. it is a private muslim school, and i'm very excited. when i worked there before the students/parents/administration liked my style of teaching, and over the past few years have asked me to consider coming back. it was really challenging at times, and (for the past year) i was trying to take some time off at home, not bogging the children down to one place while i worked. and so i REALLY debated going back, but i'm glad i did. the best thing is that the children come to work with me, so i don't have to stress about getting to the sitter before making it to work, and the 2 older ones will be in my class so i will still be teaching them.
to think, just a couple of weeks ago i was a borderline-desperate woman, and today... i can see mu breaking thru. isn't it something what prayer can do?
have you ever felt like you do everything you can for your children and husband- making sure their needs are met, their dreams fulfilled- and you think to yourself that you are truly satisfied living in that role.
then one day you realize that [just how the older, wiser women warned] your children are growing (some leaving), your husband doesn't necessarily appreciate you in the way you feel you deserve, and aside from raising smart, respectful, ready-for-the-world children, you have virtually nothing. no fly business that you always thought you would have, no money to call your own, no degree that you were supposed to go back and get, no just-for-you accomplishments- besides the ones that came before hubby and children.
you look up and realize that although you FEEL [and probably THINK] you're still 25... your not. it dawns on you that even if you live to be 80, 80 isn't really that far off. you can remember 20 years ago as if it were merely 2 MONTHS ago, and you know for sure that if you do have until 80, the next 40 or 30 years will likely zoom by just as quickly. and what if your husband dies or leaves you, or your children grow up and eventually leave home? then what??
the panic kicks in, and while some of us actually get up off of our tails and do something, some of us don't.
obviously i am not simply throwing some arbitrary question out at you; i have owned this plight for quite some time. thankfully though, i was able to build up the strength and courage to join ranks with the former gals: i got up off of my butt and went back to work! i know this post probably makes me sound manic, but i'm not; i feel good. damn good, y'all! i had to find myself again because mu was m.i.a. i'm not that deep, so i know a whole lot of you feel where i'm coming from
and trust, i don't regret my choices of staying home with my babes, homeschooling, or even running [my husbands] restaurants because not only did i ask ALLAH for all of these things, but they benefitted us all. of course, the children being able to spend quality time with me and each other was tremendously beneficial on too many levels to even name, and homeschooling opened them up to worlds they never would have known in private or public school sectors. and while the restaurants liked to have broke a sista down (big-ups to all you restauranteurs out there!), it taught me business hands-on, and gave me confidence that i could not only cook for other people[and have them love and even pay for it!], but also teach them how to cook for themselves (2 businesses that i've started on my own).
oh, and one of the many things homeschooling has done for me (besides make me smarter, and a HUGE history buff) is teach me how to teach others. which brings me finally to the point of this post: i am back at the school i used to work, teaching grades 4, 5 and 7 (general ed.), as well as high school health. it is a private muslim school, and i'm very excited. when i worked there before the students/parents/administration liked my style of teaching, and over the past few years have asked me to consider coming back. it was really challenging at times, and (for the past year) i was trying to take some time off at home, not bogging the children down to one place while i worked. and so i REALLY debated going back, but i'm glad i did. the best thing is that the children come to work with me, so i don't have to stress about getting to the sitter before making it to work, and the 2 older ones will be in my class so i will still be teaching them.
to think, just a couple of weeks ago i was a borderline-desperate woman, and today... i can see mu breaking thru. isn't it something what prayer can do?
Monday, July 21, 2008
Aw'ight, now that that's done...
we can kick it. What's been goin' on?
I'll tell you what's on my mind today. Last night I was watching the Run's House episode that Vanessa poses for Maxim (one of favorite shows btw). Not only was I agreeing with Angela--the clothes WERE NOT 'tastful'-- but also Run. What is the problem with being concerned with what your children/ family are doing, even after after they are so-called grown?? And what's more, why is so wrong to actual care what your parents/family will say or think about your actions, and actually using that knowledge to help yourself come to a decision? Russel and Kimora's advice was off the hook to me.
In my opinion, the fact that we usually don't care what others think [we even flaunt this fact like it's something to be honored], only about our own irrational, momentary desires which comes from the lowest part of ourselves, is what has gotten us into the fixes we are in today. What fixes, you may be asking; well, honey, where to start? We can talk on a global, national, or personal level. From global warming, to the spread of AIDS, to too many babies being born out of wed-lock, to having a daughter posing near nude and being concerned little about how it will effect her family; 'selfishness', and the ability to go for what we want, when we want, just because we want has caused many a problem.
Now a know alot of y'all will think I'm going off the deep end, like 'Alright Mu, how'd you get this from that'.
(To be cont.---sorry!)
I'll tell you what's on my mind today. Last night I was watching the Run's House episode that Vanessa poses for Maxim (one of favorite shows btw). Not only was I agreeing with Angela--the clothes WERE NOT 'tastful'-- but also Run. What is the problem with being concerned with what your children/ family are doing, even after after they are so-called grown?? And what's more, why is so wrong to actual care what your parents/family will say or think about your actions, and actually using that knowledge to help yourself come to a decision? Russel and Kimora's advice was off the hook to me.
In my opinion, the fact that we usually don't care what others think [we even flaunt this fact like it's something to be honored], only about our own irrational, momentary desires which comes from the lowest part of ourselves, is what has gotten us into the fixes we are in today. What fixes, you may be asking; well, honey, where to start? We can talk on a global, national, or personal level. From global warming, to the spread of AIDS, to too many babies being born out of wed-lock, to having a daughter posing near nude and being concerned little about how it will effect her family; 'selfishness', and the ability to go for what we want, when we want, just because we want has caused many a problem.
Now a know alot of y'all will think I'm going off the deep end, like 'Alright Mu, how'd you get this from that'.
(To be cont.---sorry!)
Guess who's back???
Hey y'all!!! Man, have I had a tough time getting back here!
First, I was off line for awhile because we had no internet. Then, when I finally got it back, there was a new way to log into Blogger: get a g-mail account (which you probably already know). So of course, I obliged. But since I hadn't had time to blog, I forgot my sign-in information, which is where the real confusion started...
Well, anyway I'm back, and I'm so excited! So many things I've been wanting to share (still so little time to do so, but I will try much more often). But first thing's first: must get some music up in here!
First, I was off line for awhile because we had no internet. Then, when I finally got it back, there was a new way to log into Blogger: get a g-mail account (which you probably already know). So of course, I obliged. But since I hadn't had time to blog, I forgot my sign-in information, which is where the real confusion started...
Well, anyway I'm back, and I'm so excited! So many things I've been wanting to share (still so little time to do so, but I will try much more often). But first thing's first: must get some music up in here!
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